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Monday, July 04, 2005 When I said goodbye to my parents.. and walked towards the gates that took me to another world.. another life.. I didn't think that I would change as much as I have now.. To the better or worse.. I honestly.. don't know.. The first few days in kuwait I felt suffocated.. sensitive beyond believe (still am) i think its somethin in the air.. or in the fake air we breath here.. everywhere I go the windows are closed.. morning and night.. we breath the fresh air only while sitting at the sea or walking from the call to our destination.. People know their are certain things that are wrong in their life and admit to it.. but the society as a whole is unwilling to help its self to the better... I can't blame the woman when they don't go out as much.. I don't blame the woman from not being in certain places that we in the west hang out in normally... I couldn't even stand being in some of these places... I hated being in the car or walking around in the mall at some points.. I hated not being myself.... But nevertheless I love Kuwait.. I love the khalegi feeling i get when I step into their houses.. when i go to their gatherings and parties.. I loved and hated every experience in kuwait.. as i would anywhere else.. i'm know to be more of a critic of everything I do and go to.. As for me.. I think i saw some truth here.. unfortunately i learned things that i coulda been better without knowing but yet.. i feel like my pain was their pain for many years and will be till the day we die... I can't be sorry for anything.. and i will take revenge.. i promise.. As I grow i keep learning one thing about people.. 'they are not as nice as we think they are.. people are evil and we musn't be nice to all nor believe them all.. people are selfish and so you should be too.. you must live for yourself first then others' its harsh but that's life.. the things you hear of and the things you see are unbelievable in this world.. Every step is a new adventure.. and the journey of life never ends.. they journey of finding the truth about one's self and others never ends.. the roads we walk through are our choice and our doings... I might be going to turkey.. I still don't know if i should.. or want to.. To my best friend, I came all the way here to see you.. Where the hell are you... To my lil brother, This is the first birthday that i don't bug you and hug you.. Love you lots... Happy Birthday.. To mom and dad, Love you the most.. Even though i'm on vacation and im suppose to enjoy my time.. It isn't the same without you beside me leading me through this journey... To my older brother, Love you lots... although life makes us sour sometimes.. but i can't deny how much you meant to me.. I can never hate you... To Eimanie, Fidz, NouNou, Dalooola and Lubz, Miss you girlzzzzzzzz... I can't wait to come back.. and tell you all that has happened.. Good and Bad... To Zee, Yalkhayes I miss you.. To MisGuided, I miss the Super Hero and everything he brought to me. To Faroo7a, I'm sorry baby but i will see you this week inshalla.... To FoFo, I will see you in the morning... To JooJoo, Bood and Baroom, I truely Hate you All. To Alnajar, You guys need to chilax.. If the three of us can forget the awful past that you should too. . To Abasko, Ye2borni Jamalkom.. a7la Nassssss... To MoMo, Inshalla alla ya36eech 3ala neyatich.. To YooYoo, You will never be forgotten you are a good friend. To everyone else, I still love life.. but can't love you... All hasn't been said.. but this is good for now.. B-Bye Sincerly, KoKo |
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